Yes, I admit it. I do hate myself. I hate that I hate myself. Which doesn't make a lot of sense, but who cares? I've done things in my past that I'll later regret, and will never forget. I've done things that will leave lasting emotional and physical scars. I hate myself for these things, but it's happened, and it's the past.
I saw this featured blog about a woman who said she was hot in her new dress, turning heads. She posted a picture, and she looked very beautiful (now I'm not a lesbian, but she was gorgeous). I have very low self-esteem and do have a share of self-loathing, but hey, I'm only human... with a touch of depression, bipolar disorder, and ADHD, but I'm normal, to an extent
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But I also, am completely in love with myself. If I was a man (but still there was me) I'd marry myself! Seriously, I love everything about me! I love that I can stand out, and not care about what others think. I love that I've got one of the most best friends a girl could ask for. I love that I've been through what I've been through at an early age. Because I know how to deal with it later on, it teaches me responsibility. I love that I've got a home and a bed (which I also love.... hahahaha). I love my style, they may not always look great on me, but I love my clothes. I love my face. Not my smile... but my face. I love my eyes, they're beautiful and hazel/brown. I love my hair, I have bad hair days which suck, but I still love my hair! It's my favorite body feature. I love my shoes, I love my room (when it's not dirty
). I love my adorable most charming cute kitty Gracie! She's my most favorite girl every, she loves me, even when I push her away when I'm busy. She runs up to me when I'm home from school, she runs up to me when I'm sick or when I'm crying. I love her and she loves me!
I'm only human, humans have their own individual flaws. I have my own flaws. I deal with them, but it takes time. It takes time to overcome obstacles in life, it takes time to overcome your own self hate. But the day still comes when I will fully love myself, I don't know when, but I know it will come someday!
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